Sunday, December 31, 2017

Beating Bleeding Bloody Heart

This boy
My toy
To have
Behold
And mould
So sweet
Sexy
Enticing
Fills me
With joy
He has
My soul
Can make
Me roar
So smart
Jumpstart
My heart
His kisses
Never miss
To delight
And excite
Thrill me
Tease me
Please me
Still my
Beating
Bleating
Bloody heart
This man
My plan
For happily
Ever-afters
From the rafters
Let me shout
You are what
I’m about

***

Just another day

On this special day
We wish away
What we really want
A great declaration
With some trepidation
It’s change we are rooting for
A new day dawning
Hemming and hawing
On how best to be ourselves
A nip and a tuck
In for a dollar
Until the midnight hour
And so we holler
Happy New Year
With exultation
And elation
Inspiration
Knocks at our door
We start a list
Of all our wishes
Prioritize
And idealize
What’s realized
Can someday be
Our hopes and dreams
Could very well be
Actuality
I’m so excited
I’m exonerated
From a past that was
Darker than night
Try as I might
To reverse it
And how the glum
Can be undone
By resolution
A revelation
And titillation
Over such promise
But to my chagrin
What was to begin
Is what arrived
Cloaked in disguise
Just a regular day

***

Wintry Morn

My frosted breath stings
To give my voice wings
While still waters sing
Neath a Crystal sheath

Evolution

A man undressed
Is at unrest
When comes to bear
His Soul
He feels he must
Wear close to breast
Ill feels of lust
His Heart
He suffers true
His pain exudes
And nary he shows
His Will
Determined He
Never quite free
Caged yet untamed
His Voice
Without regret
Naught I expect
A pause bereft
His Might
A seduction
Of inclusion
No delusIon
Or illusion
Of expectation
Dissatisfaction
My satisfaction
An extraction
Of all you are
And nothing more
Evolution

***

Madness

A window pane
Into my brain
A Firefly
That's hardwired
Impulses
Of muscles
Bring to life
Unseeing eyes
Pandemonium
Of my chromosomes
Neutrons on fire
Maniac for hire
Blinking lights
Pistons fight
Igniting
My matter
Mad Hatter
Evil doer
Ever cuckoo
Crazy I am
Traffic jam
A freeway
Of crossed wires
Madness unstaved
His time to play
Wasting away
Nothing amiss
On this trip
LSD
Entertained
A frenzied calm
Exploding bomb
Inside my head
Truly tis dull
Outside my skull
For inside
I'm insane

***

With bated breath

See this heart
Beating fast
It knows
What it wants
Like the Sun
It has begun
To want
So it flaunts
Shy
Coy
Wry
Oh Boy!
I am waiting
With bated breath
To know this girl
Her world unfurled
Best story yet
A book I read
Heroine is dead
Me I was sad
I wanted to be
This girl you see
Who mattered and lived
So here we are
My heart laid out
Need you to shout
What we’re about
And so make sense
Of this pretence
And figure out
Where we go
I don’t know
But here I am
Wanting to be
Someone you need
And maybe I
Just wanna be
Forever part
Of you and me

***

Spare Change

Just a quarter
All I’m after
And ask you for
My hands are dirty
And some unsteady
I need a drink
This last cigarette
No coin for rent
My mind’s a labyrinth
Led by addiction
To my extinction
None of it fiction
My story of
Loss and of woe
Beneath the soot
An average Joe
Without a home
I’m not a crook
Just down on luck
Given a chance
You’d see romance
In my old soul
An eye that twinkled
A heart not fickle
Searching forever
My pot of gold
In dreams so pure
Once was I sure
Top of the world
In a few blinks
Brought to the brink of disaster
Society’s cage
I’m so filled with rage
And left to implore
Buddy can you spare some change

***

Friday, December 29, 2017

Be

Once upon a time
In a fairy tale
Fuck what’s right
Do what you must
Who are they
Slavery’s a bust
Have sex
Smoke weed
Procrastinate
Contemplate
Negotiate
Lie and cheat
Until you’re beat
Pump gas
Screw Mass
Exist
Resist
Pump your fist
Losers beware
I don’t scare
I ain’t sharing
Or retaliating
But this girls normal
Is under duress
I’m a mess
But who gives a damn
My life ain’t got glam
I am who I am
I’ll live this life
I won’t think twice
Done with being-nice
Need me a Daddy
Who got lots of money
I’ll be his honey
I’m a wannabe
So damned tired
My brain wired
I desire
What ain’t free
My last hope
Going for broke
Still want me?

***

We

See this heart
Beating fast
It knows
What it wants
Like the Sun
It has begun
To want
So it flaunts
Shy
Coy
Wry
Oh Boy!
I am waiting
With bated breath
To know this girl
Her world unfurled
Best story yet
A book I read
Heroine is dead
Me I was sad
I wanted to be
This girl you see
Who mattered and lived
So here we are
My heart laid out
Need you to shout
What we’re about
And so make sense
Of this pretence
And figure out
Where we go
I don’t know
But here I am
Wanting to be
Someone you need
And maybe I
Just wanna be
Forever part
Of you and me

***

Captive

Like stained glass
Captured mist
Echoes in the dusk
Still waters rumble
And explore in secret
Beneath the fragments
Preening under a setting sun
Captive as untold lore
Silent it preys haunting
Circling a sheen of light
As it dances gloriously
Free in the open air
Kissed with breaths of wind
Humbled by droplets of rain
Her reflection borne
Carved in the sweeping ripples
In want of her freedom

***

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Be Mine

I'm a liar
If
What you desire
Ain't
What I can give
The dresses you wear
Caresses you share
You are in it
To win it I'm sure
Let's take it slow
Get naked
We'll go
Have a pint
Say a few
Get acquainted 
Contemplative 
Should you stay
Or should you go
God damned
This need
Between
My knees 
Begging please
One touch 
I am yours
So talk to me
Get to the point
You wanna date
Or smoke a joint 
I wanna lay you
Splay you 
Fill you
It ain't hype 
Be my mine tonight

***

Keep Me

As we lay 
Cheek to breast
Hands entwined
We are one
Feed me
Seed me
Need me
Complete me
Don’t return me
Seeking what
I ain’t got
Youth and time
My life ain’t mine
Deliberate 
Liberate
Pick me please
I am but
Yours to tease
On your knees
Who am I
Hear you cry
Undenied
Truth
Ruthless you will
Get your fill
Try not to spill
My blood on the way 
Sugar and spice
Naughty but twice
I am but what
You desire
Take a chance
On romance
Fuck the spark
Listen please
To your heart
I’m the one
That you love so
Once you have me
You won’t let go

***

Wednesday, December 27, 2017

Butterfly

A girl I once knew
Stood at a crossroads
Ever quite unsure
Mournful of a life
And choices not hers
Desperate to fly
As the butterfly
Blessed with new meaning
Yesterday long gone
A blossom unfurled
Glorious in the Sun
Without pause she faces
The way she will go
Never looking back
Sure, in what she knows

*** 

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

Judgement

You don’t know me
Yet you judge me
You see what
You want to see
You hate
Berate
If you only knew
Or walked in my shoes
You’d appreciate
Not retaliate
I’m just a girl
Who hesitates
Leaves to fate
Her destiny
And lets it be
For you to
Decide
Chide
Wishing I’d 
Change
I ask for love
From high above
So don’t believe
That you know me
Do you feel my tears
Wet upon your cheeks
Sit up with me
When I can’t sleep
Hold my hand
Understand
What makes me whole
Or fills my soul
I have a friend
Through thick and thin
Mine til the end
Will always be
Eternally 
Special to me

***

Monday, December 25, 2017

His Pen

Ne’er love a writer
Everything he writes
His soul his canvas
Purpose for his life

All he lays to bare
Nuance of his truth
Splayed across his page
No mercy, a brute

He, ripe with passion
Fills you with his need
Brooding and soulful
He makes you believe

You but his device
Fodder for his tale
Yarn for his epic
All of it for sale

***

Moving On

I’m not tough
You’ve berated
And played it
So I’m done
It’s been fun
You’re a liar
Pants on fire
Deny-er of truth
Your ruthless
And useless
I’ve loved you
Until now
Why i cared
What I shared
Meant nothing
It’s true
What’s the matter
Does my chatter
Hit home
Don’t worry
No jury
Would convict
So you lose
I’ve moved on
Hence this song
Is happy
And not blue
But if one day
Along the way
You miss my face
Call me up
We can sup
And drink to
Auld Lang Syne

***

Saturday, December 23, 2017

Cold

Lift your glasses
Drink your spirits
Tis the season
For the masses
He’s the reason
Our Lord Savior
I’m quite forgotten
Overlooked you see
As you step over me
On the street
Beneath your feet
Cold filthy concrete
And my cardboard sheets
My loved ones
Are long gone
No one cares for me
It’s my own damned fault
A life not wanted
A dream thwarted
Disregarded
Pray for me please
A dollar spared
But for my pride
A few pennies more
Dreams of my life
Before this
Like a kiss
Freshly missed
A fine young lad
I once did know
A mother
And father
Who loved me so
A home and garden
Brimming in bloom
My very own room
A sister
A brother
Lift your glasses
Drink your spirits
Tis the season
For the masses
He’s reason
Our Lord Savior
I’m quite forgotten
Overlooked you see
As you step over me
On the street
Beneath your feet
Cold filthy concrete
And my cardboard sheets
My loved ones
Are long gone
No one cares for me
It’s my own damned fault
A life not wanted
A dream thwarted
Disregarded
Pray for me please
A dollar spared
But for my pride
A few pennies more
Dreams of my life
Before this
Like a kiss
Freshly missed
A young fine lad
I once did know
A mother
And father
Who loved me so
A home and garden
Brimming in bloom
My very own room
A sister
A brother
Plenty of love
Faith in our God
Suddenly
Taken from me
Now here I lay
Alone and failed
Winds stifle my sigh
Din quiets my cries
My faith strong and pure
I pray on this nigh’
That I may endure
A Christmas past
I still remember

Journey

Death
within
Christ
Power
in
might
Evil
in
light
Fuels
this
fight
Soul
takes
flight
Saved
this
night
Faith
she
cried
Her
life
denied
Halo
her
pride
What
a
ride!
***

Friday, December 22, 2017

A Christmas Wish

I’ll start small
Not a wagon
Or a doll
A whistle
Or new shoes
But if you please
Have spare world peace
For war to end
And hearts to mend
That would be swell
A cure for disease
I’m sure you’ll agree
Is something we
All wish to see
A stocking stuffer
Filled with supper
To feed the poor
And thousands more
A friend or two
For those who are blue
And want only this
Love and nothing more
A few extra kisses
For those who are missing
Someone special
At their door
For hate to implode
And evil revoked
The ego humbled
Racism to stumble
Do I need to pause
Is this too jumbled
My Dear Santa Claus?
A few more things
That you can bring
On Christmas morn
Running water
Plenty of heat
Extra bedding
For those who sleep
On beds concrete
My heart does break
For all those lost
In the system
Who are victims
Innocent prey
All that I want
All that I need
I hope and pray
I’m not too late
My list is on its way
***

Regret

It drapes
Brooding
Sickly
Sends pure shivers
Down my spine
Cloaked in evil
Stops my breathing
Withers in time
I wish that you would
Free my captive mind
I’m sorry for each mistake
Without you I fly

***

Thursday, December 21, 2017

Just Blue

I am blue
Own it
Wear it
Don’t stare at it
I’m different
I know it
My unique
Don’t critique
Revel in my glory
Don’t judge my story
Why is my best blue
Not enough for you
You don’t have a clue
Wannabe
Couldn’t be
Shouldn’t be
Allowed to hate
Such a waste
Of breath and space
We are all one race
The human kind
And wrapped so fly
Free to soar
Don’t beholden
To history golden
Fables or lore
Be the man
Take a stand
Understand
It’s God’s plan
That we unite
Ignite the fight
Power in might
Let’s get it right
Ain’t no-hue-as cool
Like the colour BLUE!
***

Red Penny

My sadness is spent
Not a red-penny cent
Is there-left-to-my name
And my tears they did fall
Like a big wrecking ball
This permanent resident
Who should’ve paid rent
My poems helped express
Expel my duress
Naked I undressed
Unraveled my soul
And now there is room
Bereft of the gloom
To celebrate joy
And all my blessings
That were simply resting
Until they were free
My view was so slanted
That I took for granted
And never believed
In the power of me
To those in my heart
Thanks for your part
Keeping me sane
Through my ups
And my downs
Adjusting my crown
When it tumbled down
I’m back on my game
To each one of yours
As Christmas draws near
I give you my love
In tinsel and bows

***


Wednesday, December 20, 2017

Passing Through

I’ve never
Understood
What makes Evil
What makes Good
This place
This world
How it’s made
Lots of sin
Lots of pain
No one’s game
No glory
And no fame
Someday we’ll
Rue the day
Each day new
I am just
Passing through

***

Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Who is Merry

Crescent moons
Blanket skies
Twinkling
Glistening
Crests of white
Gleaming
Stardust
Crystal lights
If I may
Have one wish
Undo you
Just the part
Where you left
My poor heart
I will sing
Deck the tree
Make merry
Pretend
Defend
Myself from
Hurt and glum
Surrounded
Grounded
With stuff to do
Keep me busy
Let me forget
I'm not whole yet
I'll have a blue
Day without you
But I'll bet
You've no regrets
And wonder if
Perhaps you are
Gazing upon
That very same star

***

Loss

An angel born
Is someone taken
This loss so great
My heart broken
The rain will pour
The sun will shine
My heart will heal
Just give me time
A greater love is
Known and now lost
My darling father
I yield your cross

***

Daddy's Girl

My father is a liar
If truth were to be told
A bastard
Exquisite master
Of the game
He’d spend his dollars
On his lovers
Drove my Ma insane
Ingenious lies
His alibis
Who he portrayed
Mentor
Coach
Brother
Personas in his name
Love him
Hate him
I regret him
Curse our family name
No excuses
His abuses
History is made
When he left
Feeling bereft
I’m shelved
Unloved
Rootless
Fruitless
Wannabe
Still I hope
And pray someday
Of me he’ll say
This my girl
Was my world
There simply was
No other way
***

Monday, December 18, 2017

jaded

You’re lying
Implying
Nothing to lose
I’m dying
Always crying
Why must I choose
Your face is a
Twisted maze of
Love and disgrace
I can’t replace
I’m jaded
Won’t erase
What you mean to me
Seriously mister
Ain’t your sister
You’re what I need
Toe the line
You’re out of time
Start proving
I’m grooving
Love sublime
You impress me
Don’t undress me
With those eyes
Live your life
And realize
This girl is fine


***

swell

A familiar pull
A most certain tell
Telling me you’re near
Yet you feel so far
From anywhere here
Quite unexpected
The swell in my heart
Yet the tears in my eyes
Fill my head with lies
Enchantress
Moon Goddess
Feel my plight
And grant me this
My wish tonight
Fireflies and wine
A night so divine
Impassioned soul
How can you know
Who to love
Who can go
Thief of sanity
Forever insane
Try to refrain
Subside this pain
Loosen the strings
Heartache you bring
This ball and chain
Am I a game
Crest the tide
What a ride
Though I am broken
A small token
Of my affection
I give still to you
***

a dance

The first special dance
On her wedding day
With her new husband
In his arms she’d stay
The second was with
Her father no longer
Daddy’s little girl
Atop the tips of
His toes she would dance
Always her first love
As their song was playing
And the lights were dimmed
Not a sound was heard
But her softly crying
He was now in Heaven
Great his wings of feather
She knew he was wishing
This dance she remembered

***

marshmallow

I may be soft
Hearted and such
I give my all
I’m in your clutch
Soft and mushy
Tender squishy
Always I’m there
Wanting and waiting
For you to care
A snow-white canvas
For you to paint
I yield I bend
Ooey gooey
Such a delight
You want a taste?
C’mon take a bite
Perhaps I’m plain
Oh, please explain
Why you don’t come around
Quit treating me like background
See me for me
Open your eyes
Don’t be shallow
Says the marshmallow

***

Sunday, December 17, 2017

social

Unfollowed
Unfriended
Fake profile
Life ended
No blue likes
No red hearts
You left me
In social Hell
Every click
Every comment
Was a gift
A moment meant
Like I mattered
To someone at all
Then you left me
Emoticon
Broken-hearted
Please will you call
My virtual heart
Tendered with care
Needs someone to
Love me today
Ply the hangman
Ready his noose
I am cooked as
This Christmas goose

***

I'm Not OK

When enough people leave
It is expected
Quite ordinary
Not extraordinary
Normal in fact
Train leaves the track
My heart still beats
Though you are gone
It doesn’t matter
Who’s right who’s wrong
My tears
My fears
Play a sad song will you
Dredge this heart through and through
My up
My down
One slice who will know
Or see
Or care
If I go
You aren’t there
Hide your feelings
They aren’t real
You must be stealing
Drama queen
You’re unseen
You are nothing
Now I’m blushing
Too much attention
On this dissention
I’m sorry
My story
Ended


***

Someone's Choice

We are all unlearned
Uneducated
Born of creatures
Who either hinder
Or who guide us
Gentle is their touch
Or harsh is their whip
Spiteful words of anger
No cuts still I bleed
Tender kisses given
From the shadows carried
Burdened with my weight
And when your chest grew
In pride swelled and true
The first person
I reached out to
Every day was you
A beacon drawing
My sorrow to shelter
A port in life’s storm
With you I knew i
Was never alone
You are not my mother
Nor my father either
You were someone who
Picked me from a garden
Of flowers overgrown
Showered me with love
And made me your own
I count my blessings
Every day for giving
You to me and hope
One day I will be
The same kind of dad
That you were to me

***

Friday, December 15, 2017

Graffiti

Words scrawled across a wall
Painted in color
No meaning at all
Expression of self
In its purest form
Represent myself
My heart and my soul
Who I want to be
Every aspiration
There for you to see
Step a little closer
Don't dismiss away
What you deem graffiti
Is life done my way

***

Penny Wish

A penny tossed
Is never lost
Fair trade this wish
Casted to sea
For love long gone
To right a wrong
Through copper hope
And willed to be
A soul declared
Nothing be spared
A final request
Her dying plea
With wings and prayer
It made it there
And in his heart
Forever breathes

***

Thursday, December 14, 2017

Losing

This heart
Beating fast
My head
Starts to crash
Crazy anger
Feeling remorse
Guilty of course
My voice is hoarse
Tongue so twisted
Ineptness
Ignorance
And bullshit
I’m sick and
Tired of it
I can’t explain
Why does my brain
Twist all you say
It matters
Your blather
You're worthy
To this girl
I listen true
But I stammer
A jackhammer
Busting through
Winding like
A corkscrew
And killing
Everything
That is sane
Not my game
Maybe it's best
I failed this test
Does it prove
That your truth
Is ruthless stuff
I’m not enough
Your words laid there
Without a care
And leave me bare
So here we are
Hearts in a jar
Let’s examine
Feast or famine
Why do we quarrel?
There is no glory
There's no right or wrong
Displacement of blame
There’s only sorry
No win in this game
***

Queen

I’m a dreamer
Some say schemer
I like to play
Do things my way
I’m the artist
You’re the clay
I’ll tell you this
With my kiss
I get my way
It’s all a game
Ain’t got fame
Only my name
Screw mundane
Nothing the same
I like my way
Only black baby
Nothing is grey
I’ll ask again
Who wants to play?
I promise fun
Only today
Tomorrow ain’t
What I equate
The horse is at
The starting gate
Get on board
Or be bored
I’m the Lord
Master of my world
Ruler of the Yard
Your Queen
My extreme
Is worth the scene
Are you in
Or are you out
Come play baby
I’ll make you shout!

***