overshare

I overshare
And no one cares
I place my heart
Out on a shelf
Lovely to look
Precious to hold
Every piece
Shining pure Gold
Intentions none
I love to talk
And should you smile
A starting gun
The words they fly
Like dear old friends
I chat a storm
Cold early morn
Oh, gotta run?
Let’s meet again
No hidden truths
Or misplaced guise
I am for real
No alibis
And what you see
Is what you get
This one girl’s voice
Just wants a friend

***

The Fallen

Crashing waves
Fallen dreams
Freedom fight 
Mask the dawn

Soldier child
Carry me
Left behind
Just a pawn

Left to die
Missed hero
Faulty flag
Worth zero

Who am I
Someone's child
Scream my name
I am gone

Flander's field
Say my name
Widowed son
Soldier's song

Camoflauge
Die the brave
Yet you shout
It's all wrong

One day soon
We will be
United one
United free

***

the man that i need

I want you to be
the man that I need
Do you see?
Two is much stronger
and does make me feel
I’m tethered
And loved more than one
could possibly be,
solitarily
Do you see?
Can you imagine
the satisfaction
being our own team,
amazing
A life together
always forever
you and me
Do you see?

***

Captive

I dress her in crushed velvet. Deep purple, and defiant. Bright pink strands of colored hair. Her skin smooth like porcelain. Cold to touch, all warmth fleeing.  Fascinating, this stillness. Ruby lips so plush and ripe. I taste her, a gentle kiss. Her screams still echoed aloud. Contained in this cement room. Gloriously surrendered. Hesitant I was to quell. Morning seeps through thin fabric. My gaze lingering, my love. The door closes behind me. To let my pretty one sleep. ***

Hero

My dad would tell me stories
And more oft’ than naught untrue
Bundled in my coverlet
Something I looked forward to

Of Kingdoms and Princesses
Unicorns, goblins and more
Magic potions, dark towers
Delightfully, fabled lore

The hero always returns
And every story he weaves
The dark knight is always felled
And the good guy never leaves

Now that I am fully grown
I have learned a thing or two
Daddy’s are only human
Because they can leave you too

White Knights are all now villains
No Prince is ever true blue
Poison apples do exist
The Hero is always you!

***

imprint

I am sure I don’t love you

Though I can’t explain the tears

There is just something about –

everything that you do

I am certain I’ll forget,

the memories that we made.

Every single picture

and the ones inside my head.

I didn’t know making love;

Imprinted, indelibly

and forever on a soul.

Though I lost you, you’re not gone

Perhaps if one rainy day,

you are thinking about me.

Wondering whether you and -

I, would someday be okay.

***

Remember

A single visit
Every year
Dressed in her finest
She sheds no tears
Red long-stemmed roses
To honor your grave

Crosses lined in rows
Lost memories
Good men and women
They’ve taken away
Medals pinned to chest
Never forgotten

This rosewood casket
Cradles you near
Deep in the earth lain
Oh, thief of your years
Five and twenty were
Forever we mourn

The cannons they cry
Thunderous roars
Echoes in blue skies
Gentle weeps the horn
Solemnly we stand
Sending soldiers home

***

this girl

I sit in my room

Full of dark and gloom

Wishing to be

Alone and free

I’m just a girl

Small in a world

Do you hear her voice?

This life not her choice

Yet she is free

Oh, yes please see

All that you can be

Before you

I implore

Want to be

Simply free

Let me be

What I need

***

the gambler

A man took his chance

Hoping he fared well

His money their life

He thought he would win

Risk it

Do this

It’s bliss

Feeling

Reeling

No sorrow

To borrow

Missed wish

I struggle to choose

The path not to lose

Pick a winner

Win my dinner

There is a high

A big delight

I’m always right

But when I’m down

I am a clown

And my world is

Upside down

Makes me frown

Suddenly alone

My addiction owns

me, I’m

Not free

Believe

Take heed

Listen to me

I beg, I plead

Please place your bets

On you instead

***

Wishes

A girl leant upon a tree

Pondered life so carefully

A mom and dad who loved her

Sisters and brothers were four

Her health and wealth was there more,

That this blessed girl could ask for?

A child a day goes hungry

Another child is abused

One lives in fear of her dad

Another’s mom’s a whore

But please as I do wonder,

What else do you require?

This God above spreads his love

Has many to look after

Are you sure you are in need?

And could there be someone else

That needs Him and so I plead

Look closely upon your life

Count your blessings and your wins

See and choose for whom we fight

This land of plenty our gifts,

Ours to give and of our might

***

King & Queen of My Heart

Collaboration effort with Chris Young - 

My dearest love,

The man behind the crown
An ordinary man
For whom my heart tolls loud
For him I breathe
My every need
He completes me
This man mere flesh and bone
Extraordinary love
Beats strong his heart, his soul
I desire
Consumed with fire
Soaring higher
In two we join as one
My heart forever won
This girl, inside, undone

Queen of my heart,

You sit beside me on your throne.
I think of those days all alone.
I met you in the moonlight dance.
The smile, the eyes, the welcoming glance.
Had to have you by my side, my royal bride.
Falter not, head held high, loving pride.
Our people love you, they fall at your feet.
I know you better, their actions I repeat.

***

Sister

I look at your picture

From a long-time ago

It fills me with gladness

It fills me with sorrow

I remember our life

The memories we shared

Everything that we were

Held to my heart, endeared

In time, we grew apart

I was someone you knew

Still my heart remembered

A girl I looked up too

My sister born of blood

A sacred hold have you

While distance may fill us

Our love forever pure

***

Phobia

There are no sounds
But for my breath
Erratic beat
There is no light
To shine on me
I am unseen

A crowded room
Overwhelming
I’m imploding
Quell his roar
Evil doer

I feel the panic
I just let it ride
Enraged beast
Inside me

Alone I stand
Right beside you
You see through me
Indelibly
Invisible

I feel my breath
Quicken
My palms begin
To sweat
My face it glows
Crimson
Gasping for air
Can’t breathe
Oddity. You stare
Help me

My tongue swallowed
No words do come
I am buried deep
Fear engulfs me
Won’t let me speak

Darkness consuming
There is no warning
Mercy please
Still he feeds

Mental illness
Hidden disease
What you can’t see
Can still be real
Still you fear me

Imprisoned my mind
A fight to the death
Final act
Fade to black

***

Honey

Letters carved into a tree
Our love captured for always
And stand true this testament
A piece of art throughout time
This my hearts sentiment

This life
My wife
Filled with love
Blessed above
My light
My heart
Feels right

Our children are fully grown
Grandchildren upon my knee
Stories from long time ago
Shared with laughter and with love
My heart still tenderly mourns

One tragic night we did part
A wintry drive stole my love
Our last kiss upon my lips
Your smile forever still breathes
Whispers these two passing ships

My love
Remains
Never gone
Wished upon
Bright star
Always
My heart

***

Catching Grace

Of catching Grace
It is bestowed
Forgive the dark
Seeded. Tempered madness
From this root born

Of labour, sweat
We ply our trade
Hold out our hands
For want the fruits be paid
See not our sins

I will stumble
Thy crown tumbles
Tarnish its gold
Askew. It will balance
Still it is home

In night I see
What lays dormant
Savage this beast
Red my heart bleeds
Reign the soul that is free
Sleep my beauty

***

Spared

All smiles
No wiles
Pretence
Unfenced
Only me
Want of you
This heart true
Lain bare
Uncovered
Discovered
Yet spared
Open mind
Shut down blind
You didn't hear
My words. You steered
Your words
Herded
Stirred
What I had left
Laid to rest
Disturbed
I must adjourn
This girl scorned
Wanting more
Than you give
Decieve
Relieve
Give
Love
Conceive
What's left behind
Untended
Defended
Rear-ended
Displaced
Distaste
Exhausted
At what cost
This girl

***

Eff Cancer

Fuck cancer
God damned this
Disease it
Pleases
No one
Undone
Crazy
Welcomes me
It knows not your name
No rules in his game
He teases
Pretends
Extends
Himself knowing
Only showing
What you must see
I can fix it
Optimistic
Stupid girl
Oh fuck me
Let me please
Say my peace
Can we end
Or suspend
This dreaded
Disease
Release
Angels wings
Saviour
Of nothing
So it seems
Is this all
It becomes
Fuck I’m done
You got me
Cancer, please

***

Fickle

Fickle
And trite
I'm rifled
This life
Ain't mine
I'm lying
Denying
Got no fight
All you do
Doesn't prove
Yet you shout
Use your clout
Figure out
How to deal
Please let me
In your world
Messed up girl
You decide
Ain't my ride
For a good time
Maybe next time
For today
It's my way
Don't look back
Cut no slack
This girl shines
Her limelight
She's brilliant
Resilient
Fuck her mind

***

Simple Wish

A penny wish into a fountain

A simple prayer upon bended knee

A little note inside a bottle

Sending all my Faith direct to thee

Hope is ignited in gentle waves

Beaming bright wishes to light my day

Struggles want for happily-after’s

Looking for your Word to lead the way

Doubt can cloud the Path we choose to walk

Like a beacon, strong and pure His light

I have faltered when life caused me pain

An iron will give strength to those blind

Her trembling hand holds tightly to mine

With whispered prayers, frantic to hold on

I fear that my wish has lost track of time

Dear God I know soon she will be gone

A penny wish

A desire to

Keep what is mine

Hold fast and true

My angel gone

To you is found

The bottle’s note

Washed onto ground

Love stays to weep

As you do sleep

Not mine to keep

His flock. His sheep

***