Plasticine

A perfect little white girl

In her perfect little life

A suburban Queen

Made of plasticine

Molded and unbreakable

Outward she’s unshakeable

But inside she is screaming

Longing for who she’s missing

Feed the machine

Tell her to think

When to breathe

Potion to drink

You scream at her

Tell her she’s weak

Close your eyes

and try to sleep

She takes these pills

Thief of her dreams

Still this nightmare

All consuming

Uprooted when you left me

Deep beneath my self-esteem

Ripped apart my world

Precious daddy’s girl

A porcelain shell remained

I was empty, just a name

This new game I had to play

No anchor to keep me sane

Always plastic

Phony her smile

Pretense motions

Fake emotions

Nobody’s child

Inside she cries

Substance abuse

To help her through

Wondering if

He struggles too

Cannot connect

Shuns and rejects

Alas the Great Pretender

She keeps the madness tethered

It wants to be freed

Release the wild beast

and make these chains unbinding

Free the girl I used to be

For she who stands before me

Is a girl I’ve never seen

Unleashed crazy

Settle a score

You misuse me

And abuse me

I take it and

Ask you for more

Sad girl. Bad girl

Upside down world

Never mattered

Mind fucked, shattered

Worried that you

Will leave me too

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