I'm not ready

I’m not ready
To say goodbye
Rootless
Still you present yourself
Naked and alive
What will you say
I wonder
You pretend to love me
Defend and tell me
Your web of lies
The day you left
The first day I cried
Broken
We left you behind
Still you are on my mind
I once was
Precious
Thought I mattered
Life shattered
Like bones on a highway scattered
Fires burning
An entire world unfurled
On whims crazy absurd
Where did you go
Unsure
Of who you ever were
Were you ever worth
The trouble
Happy birthday mother
Wanting you to replace
This man disgraced
To take his place
So, I can tell you
I miss you mama

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