Exist

Uncertain if
I exist
Wonder whether
There’s an After
Or is this
Blissfulness
All a dream
As it seems
This Life, I fear
Was never here
And stands to reason
There are no seasons
But for
My imagination
Exists this nation
And isn’t there
An actual There?
Or is it space
And simple games
My mind does play
Can I erase
Every single trace
Of you
Or her
And him
On a whim
Mentally trim
Who do I miss
After we kiss
Seriously
Do you exist?

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