Remorse

Celebrate this life
The journey taken
Stones cast in waters
Wayward was my path
Wanting all i did
To live as i lived
Joyful of heart and
Wishful that I will be
Simply remembered

Do you hear my voice
Lay I in slumber
Silent is the wind
Lungs thick with lament
For what I have lost
Tell me please again
How you are longing
For what we once knew
And my life renewed

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I've Changed My Mind

I woke up this morning
Dressed before the mirror
I see what you do not
A smile to hide sorrow
Some pink to colour pale
Walls built to keep you out
Tears spent to release you
Mere mortal without hope
I hear the bleating sounds
Of the clock counting down
Chiming tick tock tick tock
White noise to help me drown
I mimic the living
Every breath that I take
A plastic reminder
Of anguish and heartache
Through the curtains, the Sun
Brazenly rushes in
Shouting out to the world
A new day has begun
With a strength, I’ve not known
I will once again try
Forgive your callous heart
Let my love for you die

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I Gave

If you wondered what went wrong
I gave everything I had
Though we were destined to fail
I gave you my truth
It always was you

And should you remember me
The laughter and joy and need
You were my whole world you see
I would still pick you
Only you would do

This naive heart asks not much
Wants only to be your love
All that you give is enough
But you said goodbye
Still I wonder why

Second chances I have none
I still wish you were the one
Unrequited souls collide
I am still alive
With you by my side

Lonely heart fade to black
Wanton for what she lacks
Denied love she fights back
Blessed girl she rises
Highest mountain she climbs
With grace she lives this life
Let free the ties that bind

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On My Way

On my way to Heaven

As I am looking back

At what really mattered

And happiness I lacked

I saw every moment

I felt was ordinary

And realize perhaps -

They were so much more than that

Beauty in little things

Nature’s bountiful gifts

The sun and moon and stars

And every breathe we took

Our love along the way

Despite the pain, it shared

The arms that held us close

When we felt that no-one cared

No joy is found in stuff

Money is but a thing

Connections matter most

True love is everything

If I could spend a day

Return to life on earth

I would hug you tightly

For you are my whole world

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