Hell Bent

Bring me some cake
Let's celebrate
A candle or
Four to mark our
Passage through life 
Tell me the words
I need to hear
Pretty. Poignant
Worth my ears
Words to live by
Let's figure out
Where you went wrong
These angel wings
I am wearing
Tested and tried
Who are you
Why are you here
Kill this history
Start anew
Damn child
Beguiled
And so lost
Without you
A few pills
To keep me
Exiled
Scared
Getting high
Imma rewrite
This life of mine
Don't ask me why
This is my chance
To dance once more
Bury the whore
Even the score
I wanna be
All i was cracked
Up to be when
I was just three
Create a past
Worthy of me
Maybe then
All my sin
Forgotten
Buried within
This four-by-four
They keep me in
My reckoning
Devil's blessing
Restless dissent
Hell bent
Retroactive
Misspent intent
Postage due
No return
Errant daughter
Sent to pasture
Time has run out

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I miss you

When the night air stills
Quiet permeates
All traces of you
Time cannot erase

Little reminders
Seeds of our life spent
Waves of water high
Come crushing hell bent

Sorrow lingers near
Adrift memories
Pictures I hold dear
I wish to set free

Longing for what was
And will never be
My soul is deluged
When we became me

Lonely tear escapes
Revealing my truth
Betrayed by my heart
For I still miss you

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Do you not see the rainbow

Do you not see the rainbow?
Spilling colour from both sides
The rise of the morning sun
All glory, lest glory hides

Sweeping breathless the willow
Fly golden moons and shadows
Seep sweetly as new dawn breaks
Only then my darling goes

Gentle lips upon my cheek
Forged in dreams the day has lost
Watery depths unknown I roam
Tick-Tock. Tick-Tock. Time un-wound

Do you not see the rainbow?
Draped across a summer sky
Soaked in tears, those forgotten
Rise in flight, a lover’s sigh

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Happy Birthday Mum

Distance feeds upon our minds
Fading memories built from life
Time, a thief of clarity
Taking youth and dignity
Unwound, stilled journey found
Presenting who I’ve become
Goodbye to that little girl
Telling lines, her hands tremble
Gentle pressed into mine, crying
Broken memories un-pieced
Wearing the passage of time
Milky tears mar hugs and cheers
Gift to this woman so dear
Giving wings to her glory
In her seventy-fifth year

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